you sure will feel sad for her for some reason.

You gave all your love to her unconditionally , she hurt you more and more, till one day you

unleashed your anger at her , then she realised , all this while you feel so wistful .
She never knew that you sacrifice your time with your friends just to accompany her,

she also dont know that you have been reprimanded by friends for being with her too long,

you never tell her just not to make her feel sad or guilty , you just want her to be happy :D
you never want alot from her , sometime you just need a hug or a kiss , you never really tell her but just ask her whether she wants it , she reply a no to you .
Sometimes you thought she will do things automatically to you , but always ended up in vain .
You love her very much , too much that sometimes she do something wrong , a minor mistake you will straight tell her off , and keep remind her of things she cannot do, keep remind her ,but
she will dont listen and tend to be angry .But whatever wrong things she do , you never blame her .
You continued your part to be as caring , loving to her :D
But what you more worried and jealous is that she have many friends that are the opposite sex ,

and often messaged them , who wont be jealous ? even though you trust them , but there

is no guarantee in everything , and the person who always talked to her is someone she liked before, even you have absolute trust in them ,many things are hard to say , you will sure feel abit of jealousy inside. So many opposite sex friends sure will feel unsafe . And yet you can do nothing about it. Someone need to reply them imy , wow what a reply ,i assure if that ever happen again , i will make the person miss me more , i dont care whether the person have what backup , i will break his nose or teeth . i meant it .

Before getting together, things were so different , you will receive messages in the morning when you wake up , those sweet little things were etched in my mind even after so long ,but those things were getting further and further apart . It had no longer appear already , things were so good in the past .And when you turn to check whether there are any messages in your phone , you will always see their message appearing , but now no more already . You need to put in effort to message them ,things before were so euphoric .
After together , no more long messages , no more morning message , if you never text them , they wont take initiative to text you .
things were so different , after being together .

Yes , things were different . Before together, i dont really care so much , but after being together, I begin to love you more and more, worrying for you , be as sweet as possible to make you happy .All i wanted was you to be happy with me .
I tried to be a joker in front of you , i tried being a fool infront of your friends just to make your friends like me . I will send you long messages randomly to give you surprises and tell you how much i love you , how much i adore you . What I said to you , i never lied .I meant it , i did do it for you .

Always ask you to treat me sweet and clingy , but you just wont do it , you said you love me ,yet sometimes i cant really feel it . All the things is i am the one who takes initiative to do it . I dont like one-sided love from you , is very sad to have all this problems . I wont find you irritating to be clingy . In fact, i want it so badly.
I will be proud to say you are my girlfriend , i hug you infront of my friends , i kissed you in front of my girl's friend . I told you you were the best for me already . I never want you to be sad with me . Trying my best to maintain this relationship as it dont come easily.
I am always with you when you needed me , but sometime when i needed you , you werent around with me . Every single day i will be afraid that you might goaway and be with someone else , because you are easily affected , when others treats you good , you will have infatuation in them . Having all these thoughts in my mind , how will i feel safe ?

Who will treat you like how i do ? others who treats you good because they wanted things in exchange from you only, but i asked nothing from you , just want you to love me like how i love you . Is even this difficult to accomplished? I will protect you when you in danger, i will love you when you needed care , i will hug you tight if you cold , I will never think of you hurting me this much , although is the past already but the pain cant go away so easily .

Weiting , you might be seeing this post , but i never blamed you for anything , i really do love you . I will be always there for you , giving you the love you needed from me . I loved you wholeheartedly , seriously . I just want you to treat me the same like how i treated you , I only want to be like all those sweet couples out there doing things together and loving each other

Remember , being together isnt a easy task , we have been through alot to get this far . no matter how long the journey , i will not give up on you . We got here together and we much finish it together, no matter how long it takes .Although i am not a perfect boyfriend , but i can make sure that i treats you the best as compared to any other guy friends you have . I just want you to be happy with me , be my girlfriend and be together happily , although we might have quarrels but you know i dont meant it , cause i care for you , i do care . Lastly , Iloveyou <3

To Be Continued .......................

This is my only choice , Cause there werent any choice not

loving you ...

A heart that is hard to destroy need to undergo alot of break

heat and alot of amendment before it become undestructable...

I smelled a fragrance smell that is familiar in the atmosphere ,

The breeze that blew around you , now blows on me ...

I used to make light shine on you... Making you the brightest , making you the limelight..

Iloveyou ..

If i can show you my love , my heart~

Making light for you just to let you have a clearer look of me ...

Cause i am always behind you , beneath the moonlight..

Taking each starlight and pass it to you..

That light that passes to you , shields me from hurtful sorrows..

making me closer to you everytime ...

iloveyou ,

Let me follow wherever you go ..

lightning never strike the same place twice , true love is a gift...

Let me be by your side ...

Let the rain fall again on us ..

and let me hold on to your wet heart ...

Iloveyou,

please teach me how to love ...

let me protect you from misery ..

If you can teach me your heart

I will whatever you do ... love you

To Be Continued...

5 years of education ended.

got sorrow and happiness ...

I always thought that i am successful in all my work

But , 10jan , this date make me realise that i am not always that successful

i thought i could pass my o level and continue in another route like poly

But my naive hope were all dashed after receiving my result. .

I Flunked~~

WTF!!

Luckily, my parents didnt blame me for that , and encouraged me to do well in higher nitec. .

Now I decided to retake my o level again !

To strive for better !!